How is your book going on? As I know, guys with mental health problems are able to release really distinctive things. Just turn your "minus" into "big plus". I think all of those fears are from a lack of self-confidence. As a suggestion, you can start by working out. Such sites as
fitbodybuzz.com contain all the necessary info about training. Strong men have nothing to fear
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By the way, what exactly your fantasy novel will be about? You mentioned dragons, knights, spellblades, and the protection of the Cloak of Mylencia. Cloak of Mylencia is a "sacred relic" of your fantasy world?